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Friday, October 15, 2010

love or habit? 1:48 PM

Chatted with marcus ytd during supper..
den..
realised..
he was tgt with sharon for 4 years..
omg..
4 freaking years den they broke up leh..
wasted?
den i asked him..
do u think its love/ habit?
den he answered immediately without thinking..
habit.
but these few months..
i have beeen thinking about this qns alot..
love or habit love or habit love or habit?
of coz i am not refering to bear..
but thinking in general..
den..
a few weeks ago..
it came to me that...
isnt it when u love someone..
u have to try to understand them..
accomodate and compromise with each other..
till u feel comfortable and at ease with each other's company..
is love becoming a habit a bad thing?
why cant it be a habit that u love?
i think..
i mean..
isnt love and habit suppose to work together?
i mean..
if u all are tgt got years..
and still cant get used to each other..
how bad would that be?
hmmm..
alot alot of thoughts for the past few months..
and i came to the conclusion that..
well..
it becoming a habit is not that bad ba..
i believe.. love and habit sorta co-exist..
hmmmm..
so..
maybe.
sometimes when feelings fade..
pple blame it on habit..
i thought i can conclude my doubt..
but when marcus sounds so sure ytd..
i start to ponder again..
haiz..
can anyone enlighten me?

2nd topic: changes
haiz..
i am afraid of changes..
i dun like changes in fact..
hmmm..
i am afraid that the guy would change his attitude after getting tgt..
i am afraid that..
i will be afraid to lose him after getting tgt..
i know i will never be those kinda possessive gfs..
i know i will let him do wadever he wants..
but still.. the fear that lives within..
is tiring..
hahahahahaha.....
confused..

sometimes..
i feel damn useless..
coz when bear feels depressed coz of sch..
i dunno how to console him..
when he feels sian from studying..
i dunno how to encourage him...
when he is tired of doing sch work..
i dunno how to help him...
haiz...
all these just summarise to one word: useless..
useless pau..