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Friday, November 12, 2010

sad story 10:52 AM

LIFE..
is a sad story..
it starts from the first breath u take..
followed by..
good or bad events..
that revolves around the word..
karma...
this sticks to you for the rest of ur life..
and will only stop..
when u finally stop breathing anymore...

anyway.. to digress..
ytd i heard my mum asking my sis about our father..
apparently..
he has been asking my sis out to meet him recently...
so i just casually asked my mum..
wad does he want..
why he keep asking her to go out?
my mum said.. no idea.. but he brought sis to the bank, say wanna apply for atm card for her.. den he can deposit money in for her to use..
luckily its a joint account with my mum.. so he is unable to do so..
i mean.. if u wanna transfer $, u just need the acc no..
why do u need the atm..
there is only 800 bucks in her account..
and you are still aiming at it..??
den the second time he brought her to the bank, say wanna open a new account for her..
so i told mum., if open new acc den okie wad.. go open lor..
den mum said.. precisely..
but in the end didnt open also..
which makes me suspect wad he really wants..
i asked her where he is staying now,
and she said he is renting a room in bedok...
den i sighed.. and stopped the conversation..
i remembered.. our family was quite happy when my brother and i were young..
there were times when we got beaten up and cried.
but there were also times when we had lots of laughter..
things changed..
dunno why he became like that..
ruin the whole family.. =(
smokes, drink, gamble, steals money from home, have affair..
haiz...
i was thinking to myself..
if one day..
he come find me for money or wadever, will i give him?
if one day he dies..
will i go to his funeral?
will i be crying?
well.....
i really dunno...
thought about it ytd...
maybe i would..
but i hope i can be more heartless..
i mean..
after all that he has put us through..
i think i really hate him..
but i am really soft hearted tooo..
haiz..
dun think about it le!!
*sweeps thought away*
i've already got enough to deal with..
dun wanna add him to my list of troubles..
forget it!
*forgotten it aready*
=)

la la la~~
its gonna be such a pack packed weekend..

friday nite:
meeting sec sch friends for dinner etc for a pre-bdae celebration for van

Sat:
my uncle asked me to help him with his pushcart in the day coz one of his employee is on leave and there is two carts with no one to work.. even he has to go work himself.. BUT.. i gotta go to van's bdae party at her hse in the evening.. so he says he will close one of the stalls in the evening but he hopes i can work so he can minimise some loss for the day.. HAIZ.. i wanna be with bear bear and i feel tired.. but guess i have no choice... who ask me to be so soft hearted! pple ask and i will feel bad to reject.. LOL..
evening - go to van's party, see loads of strangers and celebrate her 21st.. hehehe..

Sun:
PLAN A -
HOPEFULLY bear bear is free on sat night..
so after the party can meet him!!
hehe.. i need my weekly dose of hugging bear to sleep..
den i can stick around bear bear and be a geng pi cong for the rest of the sunday!! =)
PLAN B -
if bear bear has no time for me..
den... i shall just go home and stay at home to play fb games?
=(